Sick stomach, painting workshop day two

last night chris and i listened to the police/fire scanner in real time all night long and heard them say that green valley lake was too dangerous for the firefighters to stay and fight... they left for their own safety. all i can say is i was so sad, in so much turmoil i couldn't sleep. it was a really stressful helpless feeling compounded with all the sadness i was feeling for people with confirmed house loss, the numbers are staggering to me. running springs wasn't even involved at first and over one hundred houses have burned there, amazing! my poor michelle! still hoping her cabin is safe!

waking up today to the tiniest hope our cabin is still standing was an overwhelming relief but even now, this could change in a second. it is so scary how areas that are safe become unstable at a moments notice, wind changes or some unseen condition arises and dozens or hundreds of houses are lost. this is gut wrenching fear, definitely not as bad as the worry or fear you feel for a loved one, but the helpless fear something you really love may be just destroyed beyond repair. i don't recommend this feeling to anyone.

ok, enough of that. as i write this i don't have confirmation our cabin is gone, there have been houses burned on our street but we don't know the specifics yet. just hoping, hoping and thanks to everyone who has sent me comments of support, they really mean a lot to me!!!!

i missed the morning demo at my workshop (just too tearful and stressed out to leave the tv) but i managed to get to my afternoon student painting session and i like this painting better than yesterday. tomorrow we go to a new location, yeah!

i woke up to my lulu at the door, never have seen her do this, wonder if she felt over protective of her mama today... sure made me smile...